Breaking news, I have joy in my life again! I believe it is because the end is coming to this diet hell I have been putting myself through. My feelings of joylessness were very strong last week and I read the reason behind that. It was my body withdrawing from the things that I was used to eating: sugar, refined carbs, and caffeine. It is a feeling of being heartbroken, pining for a lost love. I was even heavy sighing. Who knew?
I weighed myself on Monday morning and I was shocked at the number, as I knew I would be. I should never have done that to myself. I didn’t weigh myself before I started the reset so I really don’t have anything to compare, but the fact that I can see and feel changes, yet the number I saw, baffled me! What really surprised me is how I can let a number total ruin my day, I mean wasn’t it bad enough it was Monday again? Did I need something else to make that less awful? Not really, but I did it to myself. I can only blame me, I didn’t have any help from the people in my life who tell me I Have to know what that crappy little machine has to say. But 2 days later I was very happy with that little machine, it said I lost 2 more pounds and the tape measure said 5 inches gone now! 🙂
Since I wrote last I’ve made it through giving up caffeine, which made no difference in my life at all, I was so tired one day I wanted to put my head on my desk and sleep. I was so beat on Saturday afternoon I didn’t just take a nap; I took a coma! 3 or so hours later I woke up, that is exhaustion! In the book, I read how I would get natural energy and never miss it, didn’t happen. I know giving this up was suppose to help my cortisol, but I had so much stress in my work life last week I wonder if that messed me up and I didn’t notice any kind of difference because of my stress. I also gave up grains, which was not hard at all. I am eating the same thing day by day and that works for me. I know you are suppose to mix it up, but I don’t do that when I am dieting.
I went to yoga this week and I was very happy I was able to get all the way back into “plow” position and I could breath. In the past I blamed it on my boobs, but since I lost so much in my belly, I can now blame my belly for keeping me from breathing while in that position. It was a good practice, I was glad I went. I have been practicing yoga for almost 2 years and I am just now getting the hang of blocking all thoughts out of mind, I think I am able to do that because I am so tired and in pain, I don’t have time to think about the world and my issues, all I can think about is breathing through the positions and making it out alive. I did my circuit training, a 3-7 minute trainings and two days of HIIT also this week, not as much running as I usually do, but something is working, so I will keep it up.
This morning when I was outside I saw a red bird, in fact, two of them in my little tree. Because I am a superstitious person by nature, as soon as I got to work I googled what it meant and it said that “help was on the way” I pondered that definition and wondered what I am in need of help with right now. I am almost done with the 21 day hormone reset diet, and everything else in my life seems to be running just fine. It was very peaceful to watch those birds in my tree, they were so vibrant, and my favorite color too.
I made another recipe this week that is super healthy and surprisingly enough, did not cause me to become gassy, good thing, gas and yoga don’t mix! 😉 This is called Spicy Quinoa With Black Beans;
Red Quinoa – 1/2 cup
Canned Black beans – 8 oz
Onion chopped – 1
Garlic cloves chopped – 5
Jalapeno chopped – 1
Vegetable oil – 1 tbsp
Cumin seeds – 1/2 tsp
Dry Red chillis – 2
Red Chilli Powder – 1 tsp
Cayenne pepper powder – 1/2 tsp (optional)
Black pepper powder – 1/4 tsp
Lime juice – 2 tsp
Tomato ketchup – 1 tbsp
Frozen green peas – 1 tbsp
Coriander leaves – 5 strands
Water – 2 cups
Salt to taste
- Heat oil in pan. Add cumin seeds and dry red chillis and saute for seconds.
- Add onion, pinch of salt, garlic cloves and saute till it becomes light in color. Then add jalapeno and saute for few seconds.
- Add red chilli powder, cayenne pepper, canned black beans, pepper powder, lime juice , tomato ketchup, green peas and mix well.
- Now add quinoa, 2 cups of water and bring to nice boil. then cover it with lid and simmer for 15 minutes.
- Spicy Quinoa with black beans is now ready. Garnish it with coriander leaves.Serve hot with salad and enjoy
It looks very complicated because of all the ingredients, but it was really very easy. I really liked this and think you might also, always kept me very full, never needed to snack, which is the new me!
As much as I do not want to make this a habit in my life; I think I am going to have to weigh myself at least once a week to keep myself on track. I have learned a lot from this diet, a lot about me, I can’t eat sugar as much as I do, I need to stay off the grains from time to time and I need to mix up my workouts. If I don’t weigh myself I will slowly undo all the good of the past 21 days and it will happen so slowly that I won’t notice until I am fed up again. I don’t want to have to diet all the time, I want to be happy in my skin. I have always shied away from scales, they were the devil, but if you use them as a tool on a regular basis, they aren’t that bad right? We shall see how long that last, because I tend to get angry at the scale, but maybe my mind has had a reset too!!
Until next week…
Take care of you.